Saturday, April 25, 2009

OFFICALLY - Out of my control

Just a little nervous (about buying a house)

There are so many people out here - struggling to keep their home

AND Im like who do I think I am...

Its interesting that my Bishop spoke about this earlier this year

He said that God raises up those who are blessed in the time of famine

Who me

(wow - why me)

I could get stuck on those questions - but its best for me to just accept that GOD has called me to do something GREAT (at a young age)

and I might not always understand it

I might be scared to do it

But now - ITS OFFICALLY OUT OF MY CONTROL

GOD has taken over - and I wouldnt have it any other way
Everything is unconscious
Its - What our mind picks up
although we do not stare
at the painting in the corner of the room
of the girl with the flower in her hair

Everything is exciting
when you add an exclamation point at the end
but it doesn't quite work that way
when you are saying...
THIS IS THE END!

Monday, April 20, 2009

Ive been sleeping - time to wake up

I DONT LIKE IT!
and I want you to know that I do not like to be ignored (screaming at the top of my lungs).

Im Packing

How interesting that you would come around
Looking for me - when I was not ready to be found
Asking me where I been
Like we some kind of kin -
Folk
Its raining today
So much I think Im gonna be
soaked
Listening to Nina (Simone) - I think Im feeling the blues
or its the kind of day
you think of getting bad news
I hope not
I want good
But sometimes
I get misunderstood
So I pray
for clarity
and you say
You scared of me

in this body
I stand less than 6 feet tall
I stand
without GOD
I would be nothing at all

Did he bring me here to speak to you?

It doesnt matter
Im almost through...