Sunday, August 28, 2005

I was looking for one thing & found something more

Because my blog spot does not contain:
Pictures or... music
I've been forced to paint a picture - with my words
Today - I want to show you what its like for me to apply for jobs..
Ok
imagine a girl - (black girl I prefer) - with a nice size booty -LMAO! - ok sorrie -
sitting at the computer - after checking her email - she goes to the following websites:
Monster
HotJobs
Careerbuilder
Washington Post Jobs
Dice
USAJobs.com

and then she does this:

Click Search or Find Jobs
Click - to the DC Metro area
Click on Admin/Clerical; Financial Services; Marketing; Research; Bizness Development - & then Just about anything right now
Click on Job Titles - of interest
Scroll through the job qualifications...
skimming - cuz I can do all that stuff (or shall I say - I can do all things through Christ...)
Hoping they gave a salary range
Hoping they didnt ask for salary requirments
Hoping they dont require 5-10 years of experience just to make $40K - $50K
Hoping they dont make you complete the application on "their" website
Copy email addresss
Paste into a new message of my hotmail account
Attach - File called Harleyres
Copy/Paste a uniformed cover letter
Forcing myself to remember to change the title of the position - that I am very interested in
Speed Proofread & Send
Repeat 20 times
Depending on what kind of day it is - could be more or less

This is what our employment system has become for the many people I meet - the situation is similar
& its funny that it doesnt matter if you have - more experience or a degree - all that matter - is that you know people - that know some people

I wrote this blog back in July - July 23rd to be exact -
right now as an update (& currently going through all my draft blogs)
Im currently working 2 part-time jobs - that I love...
On the weekends I work at a Day Spa as a Coordinator & enjoy free microdermabrasions w/a facial (currently a $250 treatment)
Monday's & Friday's - I work at a hair salon - as a Receptionist (& receive free hair care - another benefit - since I like to keep my hair done)
- I also do some odd work for different people - if I so choose to work on my 3 days off
And what I realized is that
- I stopped looking for a job - to complete me or to give me a meaning
and start looking for my future & what Im good at & what I need to do (my purpose)
so that I would stop being boried - everytime I started working that 9-5 job
Im so much happier now- becuz - I found a peace of mind
I still look for that "full time" job that will lead me to a life of limitless shopping at Saks - but for now - Im comfortable shopping at TJ Max...
& God - has a way of showing us (ME) - what's important & how less important those other things are not
& thus - the lesson is learned
wanting more than just a job - I found humility

p.s. thanks to shiminge - I have the pictures and the music that I need - thanks for pimping my blog out

When to call?

I wanted to address one of my questions from the dating survey ( a previous blog) -
When to call?
Let me first say - that unless you are in high school - there should be no waiting 2 or 3 days before you make "the call" thats childdess and STUPID -(point blank) she wont think that you are desperate - she will only think that you like her (dummy) & dont you want her to think that you like her??? (this was actually a Seinfeld episode)
My suggestion:
If your interested call (that seems pretty simple)
(now here is the hard part) - If your not interested - let that person know - so that they wont expect a call (stop playing games - silly rabbit - tricks are for kids)
Try to indulge in a conversation - find out about the person - fellas... stop asking women
"so... why are you single? - that's none of your damn business - if she was crazy - you would find out sure enough
Ladies - stop judging men - based upon where they work & what kind of car they drive - the biggest assholes know that - that they know - they got it goin on - they dont need YOU to rub their ego (well maybe they do)

Anyhow - thats just my advice - but who am I?
Single - by choice

lyrics

MUSIC - is soooooo...... Therapuetic
Its sooooo Persuasive
Its sooooo Sensual
At times I feel like Im a walking & I just hear music all around me - easily creating my own theme music or response to a situation
Its my mood that Im in & I hear the music that fits...

I had the pleasure of having a roommate who listened to 3-6 mafia - the kind of music to get your mind right
I found myself liking the male perspective it gave
I found myself realizing that in most songs men sing or rap about - they are on the complete oppostite end of the spectrum than women
& if you dont know ladies
know this - a guy may not let you know or call you his girl - but he's feeling that way about u
& so leaving behind everything - I useta - analyze or worry about
when Im confused - I no longer listen to my girls -
but I turn on - one of the boys

And Now... My theme songs for this week!
Verses - from songs that make me feel (good), think, reflect, act & motivate

Becuz sum days - you gotta think about what your doing
What you want might make you cry - What you need might pass you by - If you don't catch it - If you don't catch it,
And what you need ironically - Will turn out what you want to be - If you just let it,If you just let it...
Thank you Lauren Hill (before the Marley)
http://www.lyricsondemand.com/l/laurynhilllyrics/whenithurtssobadlyrics.html

& I convinced myself 5 years ago - that this HAS to be the way I would feel about the "one" I marry:
I couldn't love you more
If time was running out-
Couldn't love you more...
Oh right now baby
Take me by the hand come on-
Be my darling
be the one
I wouldn't want to lay or ever love with another...
If everyone in the world - Could give me what I wanted - I wouldn't want for more than I have...
I couldn't love you more if I tried...
http://www.lyricsondemand.com/s/sadelyrics/icouldntloveyoumorelyrics.html

He wants me...(slow motion)
When your eyes are closed
I hope Im the man you see
Cos if not, I want you too know
tonight I plan to be
Is this for me?
http://www.lyricsondemand.com/n/nerdlyrics/thewayshedanceslyrics.html

The title says it all - Mrs. Fat Booty
[Mos Def]
And from the moment that I saw ya,
I knew you was trouble
But I disregarded, detour signs
And did not stop til, you was mine
I guess God was like, aight fine
Careful what you wish for, cause you just might get it in heaps
Try to give it back he be like - nah that's yours to keep
So poetic baby girl you make it hard to speak
My dream lover make it hard to sleep.. I wrote a little song about it
http://www.lyricsondemand.com/m/mosdeflyrics/mrsfatbootylyrics.html

Stop try to run game - Im too clever for that
This is how I look without makeup
And with no bra my ninny's sag down low
My hair ain't never hung down to my shoulders
And it might not grow
Ya' never know
But I'm clever when I bust a rhyme
I'm cleva always on ya' mind
She's cleva and I really wanna grow
But why come you're the last to know?
http://www.lyricsondemand.com/e/erykahbadulyrics/clevalyrics.html

Spoken like a true Leo
And I'm not sorry...... (I'm not sorry)
It's human nature .........(it's human nature)
And I'm not sorry .........(I'm not sorry)
I'm not your bitch
don't hang your shit on me .........(it's human nature)
You wouldn't let me say the words I longed to say
You didn't want to see life through my eyes.....(Express yourself, don't repress yourself)
You tried to shove me back inside your narrow room
And silence me with bitterness and lies.........(Express yourself, don't repress yourself)
http://www.lyricsondemand.com/m/madonnalyrics/humannaturelyrics.html

I just want to take you home wit me...
[Jay-Z]
Uhh, yeah
Mami shot through the pad with the Mark Jacobs bag
The thick stitched seam and her favorite ass jeans
Y'all know the first date wearers
to make objects bigger than they appear like a rearview mirror
Oh her shoe game is real
She gave 'em the Christian Libountins(?) with the four inch heels
But honestly my favorite type of gear
is a scrungy for her hair and LaPearla underwear, clear?
[R. Kelly]
Girl I hear you callin, let's stop stallin
Do what we came to do
Girl I hear you callin, let's stop stallin
Baby I want you, yeah
http://www.lyricsondemand.com/j/jayzlyrics/takeyouhomewithmeakabodylyrics.html

The bandwagon is too full

It use to be that I would run into guys that were constantly telling me this particular line:
IM A PRODUCER!!!!!
Yea right - I even wrote a poem about it (dont have it on me)
But I read it at Bar Nun & everyone was cracking up

Nowadays - niggaz are telling me...
IM IN REAL ESTATE -
This is the primary reason why I refuse to get involved in that industry - too many people trying to make money off of the same thing in the same way (GOOD LUCK! Suckers....)

Please be advised that this message is in no way a ridicule on those folks "doing their thing"
I just want some people to stop doing - "the same thing"

Find a clever or special way to do something common...
It is the affirmation - I just about live by

"Im not a special person - I just do common things in a special way"

Excuse me how much will you charge me for a hand job?

After a recent field trip to a strip club (for material purposes - of course) - I am convinced - Your charging way to little for a bare (naked) pussy in your face (I guess pimps are useful)- to come and shake your tail in my face - I'll give you 3 - 1's & your shaking it more

First let me say YUCK (no) Super - YUCK - for the abnoxious amount of tatoo's that these women (paid for) to have "accent" certain body parts - ONE in particular - I HATED - was the angle wings on each butt cheek - (come - on) - then anotha gurl - had not only her clit pierced - but a part of her bootie (it was entirely too much bling going on in her pussy) & lastly I was not impressed with the nipple ring piercings... OUCHie!

So... AGAIN - becuz - I was there to LEARN - I proceeded to ask each "trick" - how do you make your azz shake like that? Hence - I learned how to pop - pop - pop that thang...


Moral of the story is there are women - who go see - other women & they arent necessarily gay or have the "tendencies" disease - some of us think its quite funny. It also lets you judge women - (in a way) - I personally wasnt given none of those tricks money (that wasnt mines - but still) unless they showed me they had craft (& having a nice face & body was helpful also)

Hence - I give mad respect to women - who know how much they are worth ($500 - a night) - While me on the other hand - I cant figure out my pay scale ....

P.s. there were too many tricks - with fake tits

Thursday, August 25, 2005

Hey Beautiful...

Oh Yes... I am definately looking for a beautiful stranger..

Haven't we met
You're some kind of beautiful stranger
You could be good for me
I've had the taste for danger

If I'm smart then I'll run away
But I'm not so I guess I'll stay
Heaven forbid
I'll take my chance on a beautiful stranger

I looked into your eyes
And my world came tumbling down
You're the devil in disguise
That's why I'm singing this song

[Bridge:]

To know you is to love you
You're everywhere I go
And everybody knows

To love you is to be part of you
I've paid for you with tears
And swallowed all my pride

[Chorus:]

Da-da-da-dum da-dum da-dum da da da-da dum
Beautiful stranger
Da-da-da-dum da-dum da-dum da da da-da dum
Beautiful stranger

If I'm smart then I'll run away
But I'm not so I guess I'll stay
Haven't you heard
I fell in love with a beautiful stranger

I looked into your face
My heart was dancing all over the place
I'd like to change my point of view
If I could just forget about you

[bridge]

I looked into your eyes
And my world came tumbling down
You're the devil in disguise
That's why I'm singing this song to you

[bridge]

I've paid for you with tears
And swallowed all my pride

[chorus]

Tuesday, August 23, 2005





Hamani is 4 Real

Monday, August 22, 2005

Can somebody please update me on the latest stereotype clause

Yo.... I saw a white man - smokin Newport(lights) -
I mean Day 1 of being 26 & this blew my mind...
it wasnt suppose to be Newport (lights) -
It was suppose to be Marlboro (lights) - something is happening with the stereotypes... they are losing their foundation.

Recap Birf-day 2005

Highlights - from Birthday Weekend 2005...

Friday Night - Dinner (yummy)

Saturday Day - Flowers sent to me (wonderful - next time go purple or mix)
Saturday Night - (& I mean late night - like 12am) - I took myself to H2O... Yeah Im grown & Im not afraid to go out by myself - unfortunately Smurf was unable to come - & Sandy was truly missed - but me... feelin a little Carrie Bradshaw - "rose to the occasion" - dressed in all black - I took a cab (very city-like)
Ran into some folks (always networking) - including an unexpected run it with an "ex" - Its always good when its unexpected and you - just so happened to look your best.... So I politely - spoke (because Im grown & grown, mature, positive young ladies like myself - DONT act un-lady-like)

Sunday - got my butt up & went to work (a little late)...then for the main event - Sequoia's - I tell you each time I plan a party - I learn more & more what to do - and most importantly what NOT to do... Having a dinner party for BLACK people - is a task (the best thing to do is #1-invited them over your house - where the food is free....then sum niggas will show up) - #2 - If you want people to show up - (even if you are trying to be considerate of their next day plans...) set the time for the latest (i.e. if you want people to show up at 8:30 - tell them 6:30) - though I understand - no one wants to be the 1st... come on #3 - I think I got the location right (obviously my description of Sequoia's on Sunday's wasnt as elaborate as most people would like to believe - because I kept hearing ... oh... I didnt know it was like this on Sunday (but didnt I say it was gonna be...) - Anyhow the "spot" was poppin & Im glad I got that right. Oh - & some folks wanted to know "how everything turned out" - this is especially funny - because they were not able to attend - but I guess they still want to know if they "missed" something....OF COURSE U DID!
Anywho!
Had lots of fun
Did a lot of flirting
Had my raspberry martini's & even 2 glasses of champagne (by the way - I was told Im a cute drunk)
Ate some good food
Didnt snap at any niggas (but I think - I did a form of snapping to someone who may have needed to know - "how I roll")
Considered getting on a motorcyle (that was a big consideration for me - cuz - I DO NOT mess with motorcyles... its the whole "harley" thing)
I looked cute...
Almost - got arrested - just kidding - but there was the cop...(anyhow - its the whole handcuff thing - now he uses his handcuffs for good not evil)
Met a British
Glad I didn't go out (people still wanted to celebrate) but I had to be at work by 8am
Left Sequoia's late - got dropped off home
& best part ever is that I dont look a day older...

p.s. Best Birf-day advice I got yesterday-"eat dessert - before dinner" ironically - I read that in a book - Black Girl in Paris (thats me)

Sunday, August 21, 2005

21

Today - your girl turns 26...

Are there any guys around - who know how to make a girl feel - MAKE ME FEEL......
GOOD!!!!!!!

p.s. back then didnt want me - now Im older - all on me...
p.s.s. I was born in the evening

Saturday, August 20, 2005

Responding to Groceries (niggas on the D.L.)

Read this first....

http://qdrae.blogspot.com/2005/05/groceries.html

If you have just read the groceries blog by Qdrae - you are probably doing 2 things:
laughing or shaking your head

My girlfriend Nia - thinks most straight guys have "gay" tendencies (especially if they are not a thug) & I must say that - telling a woman how you had her husband is just a different kind of game - I know nothing about.

How bold of you Qdrae - Im mean what do you say to that..

Let me try.... (think Jay - Z.... girls - girls)

Boys - Boys - Boys - Boys... Boys - I do adore
Now put your number on this paper - cuz I would luv to rape ya
holla at ya - when I want sum more
Ok - so Im not gonna finish - because I dont wanna offend anyone in the "community"

But I must say I was a little concerned when -
one of my friends was "claiming" to hang out with his boys - a little too much
Now its one thing - to say your hanging out with your boys and its actually a female - but its another thing to "really" be hanging out with your boys (all the time)
its like - do you have more fun with "them"?

Dear Friend:
Im a little concerned that when your out with your boys - you spend the whole time in the doggie position - if I would have know back then - maybe I could have paid more attention to your azz if you wanted me to? (no real - I cant - cuz mines is bigger... shouldnt you be looking at mines?)

Anyhow - this is a commerical - why you should always use a condom - cuz niggas are trifflin

Friday, August 19, 2005

When the situation comes - I managed to rise to the occasion

On Day 2 1/2 of being another "fake" coordinator - this time at a beauty salon on Capitol Hill (yes your girl is grinding right now)
As always, I managed to get in good with all the stylist and the manager (They love me & doing my job is easy - unless you make it hard) I go in to the situation - try to do an excellent job - because I believe in exceeding expectations - I believe that I can make a situation better - and I honestly believe in being "supportive"
Anyhow -
(Because they really dont know me - they try to fill me out) They ask - where do you get your clothes - Sean? How often do you work out? - Sean - You must get compliments all the time from men- huh, Sean?....(yes & from women too - but believe me Im not being arrogant - but I seriously have grown azz women - asking me about "my" game & Im like - your the one with the diamond on your finger - you tell me -)
Anyhow - so Im ultra nice - (because as I tell EVERYONE) there just isnt a gray area in my personality - either - Im sweet as cherry pie - or Im the "bitch" - So like Ntzoke Shange said in "for colored girls who considered sucided when the rainbow wasnt enuf" - Once I realized there was someone called a bitch...... Ive been trying not to be that & leave bitterness in someone else's cup -
Well today - my cup was filled with bitterness - Not the kind of bitterness the means I am going to have a bad day - because my day was freakin GREAT - but the kind of bitterness - where you have to come out and show people who you are for- real...
& I really have to catch myself in these situations - because I'll tell you - I have a smart mouth & I really try hard to control it but when I see things for how they are & what they are - Im not holding my tongue (but I really must be careful - & thats the angel on my shoulder telling me to be peaceful and calm and logical & sometime I dont hear her until after I explode)

Long story short - I had to put an older lady - well 2 older ladies in their place today & I had the support and back-up from the manager - so I told the hoes - when Im here - this salon will be conducted in this manner - now if you wanna do something else when Im not here then thats fine with me... & of course they didnt take me seriously - and of course - I had to show them -
End of the story - I showed them.
Im not out here telling anyone to re-invent a scenario of "when keeping it real goes wrong" NO - but what does being true to your feelings - mean to you?
How far can someone push you?

Its all about YOU...or and of course the other people born on this day

Happy Birthday Day Nia....

Sorrie - it took me so late in the day to do this - but I had-ta work & sh.....t
- But for-real - I hope you have an X-tra special day
Love You - to much...

Other people born on this day - offa the top of my head - Bill Clinton & Co Co Channel

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Birthday '05 - Recap

Highlights of last year's birthday

-Partying with Sandy & Smurf - to the break of freaking dawn(Friday & Saturday)
- Sandy buying my birthday outfit
-Getting drunk - not really a high light - but boy was I twisted... (dont worry I still managed to be cute about it & Sandy drove)
- getting drunk: subtitle 1 - L.S. showing up & buying me (3) rasberry martini's
- getting drunk: subtitle 2 - G.A. (& some other dude) supplying the champagne
- getting drunk: subtitle 3 - I learned how to snap at a nigga
- getting drunk: subtitle 4 - what happens in vegas - stays in vegas
- my very best birthday date was with Ba' (your the best!)
- mediating Shiminege's birthday party/suprise...
- getting a special delivery from Ryane'
- Smurf going out of her way to find me the "perfect" gift while overnighting in NY (the girl rode the bus for me.... in NY City - thats love)
- my mom - always trying to do it up - brought me 2 cakes (not 2 found of red velvet)
- Marcus sending my gift via WesternUnion
& lastly me feeling good about turning 25
p.s. this year - Im expecting flowers....

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

"Im just not that in to you"

The book - "he's just not that into you" written by one of the writer's from Sex in the City - is out there floating into society - supposely giving women -reasons why men - are not interested in "US"... - but in my opinion - not really taking account for - ME - or YOU - not really being into "them"
...What makes "me" not interested?

Dirty Nails - (please dont touch me with them)
Driving around - with very little gas in the car (excuse me living on the edge does not have to mean - driving on E - with the light flashing)
Kissing with your eyes open - stop looking at me - & feel the experience
Being too passive - (I need a man - not a boy - speak up for yourself and occassionally make me wonder why you talked to me like that - but then apologize..)
in addition (& Smurf this is for you) be a little cocky
Advice: Be pressed - (yes - I said it - and nothing else will get you in a better situation with a "Leo" than to be pressed - as in - I need you in my life... I want you in - my life - juvenile)
Being too cheap - I hate a cheap man - wait a minute - let me say it again... I hate a cheap azz man... (I aint saying Ima gold-digger - but I aint messing with no broke nigga...Kanye W)... but for- real..... if you have to budget to take me out on a date - then lets just talk on the phone
Playing Games - I hate when guys play games -because they hate when the game is played on them (did I make a point here) & even though I hate playing games - or "the game" in general - if forced I WILL make a point
I dont like when guys say one thing & mean something else - the best approach - you can make with ME - is to tell me your intentions, motives, plans - UP FRONT
I dont like boring men....
I dont like guys- who have nothing to say on the phone or in person
I dont like who lack ambition - (this is probably the biggest turn on for me - a man with ambition - is it so wrong for me to want you - to want for yourself - something other than - being on your "good" job for 20 years)

Ok - so I'll end with this - #1 reason - why someone ... may not be that into me - I have a smart mouth - YES I DO - but that has nothing to do with my heart...

Monday, August 15, 2005

You wanna piece of me

Announcement: My Birthday is coming up....
That's it...
Stop starring at the page like Im gonna write more
Get up
Get ready to do something about it

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

Dating Survey

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Dang... I need to take some new pictures

Anyhow - I was thinking..(like I always do)
When you start dating someone - what do you do (nowadays)
What are the appropriate dates to take a person on? (movies & dinner)
Who pays? - who doesnt pay?
What is the appropriate - 1st date outfit?
What are you saying - in your first date outfit?
What should you avoid - conversations, actions, settings?
How do you prescreen - your date?
Does it really matter where you met the person?
How can you tell if this date - will lead to a relationship?
What things are you looking at?
What things are you Not looking at?
How often should you call?
How often should you expect a call?
How often should you see each other?
What is the cancellation policy?
How do you respond to spontaneous acts?
When do you say Yes?
When do you say No?
At what point - should you tell yourself - Self, Im gonna be open to a positive experience?
At what point - should you tell yourself - Self, the grass is greener - but the house - has just as much shit in it?
How do you feel about it on a spiritual point of view?
Do you miss that person - when they are not around? & why?
What is the purpose of this person - coming into your life & why now?

People come into your life - for a reason - a season & a life time - we must begin - sorting them out...

To be continued... I intend to find out?

p.s. Dont waste precious moments - on situations or even people - who wont matter - next month, in the next 6 months or next year

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

Bare

Being in the salon industry - I am intrigued by the amount of women (people) coming in to have it all removed
yes I mean every freakin hair
I mean bare..
So I wanted to see for myself - whats the big deal....

Diaries - my first brazilain wax
I am lying flat on my back, naked, holding my butt and legs up in the air while a middle-aged Brazilian (in my case Iranian) woman peers at my crotch. She leans a little closer and moves her fingers between my flesh. While this is a position normally reserved for bedroom activities, it's business as usual ...... like T.I. says - dont be groupie keep it movin...

Ok - so this isnt my personal experience (something I got off the Net) - but can you imagine ladies - talk about an uncomfortable pap smear - imagine getting this once a mouth

Preparations:
To prepare for a bikini waxing. Don't go out to the sun 24 hours before and after the service. No hot bath or swiming. it's better that you take the shower the night before your appointment. You can also take a ibpufen 20 mins before the service to eliminate the pain. you can check out this website for more information about waxing.

Ok - you had me at eliminate the pain - everything is a blur - some have suggeted using clippers down there - but I dont know about that one - either - clippers - I mean do I wanna be snipping stuff down there - I dont think so...

Male Brazilians ( its kinda fly - for a straight guy)
My ex-wife was never wild about shaving (says it itched too much), but I thoroughly enjoyed it. She had a threesome a couple of times and enjoyed her men's Brazilians, but kept her bush. Since the split, I've dated a lot of women and every woman I go out with has a brazilian and wants me to have it, too. My favorite date, a Spanish lady, does my waxing: wax, honey, and a tongue bath that drives me wild. She starts from the base of the scrotum, moves up the shaft to the crown, then up over the crown in one fell swoop all the way down to the base. Then it's on to 69 where I give her the venus butterfly (get the book) maneuver and she shudders, then bucks like a bronco, then screams with pleasure. After my dates have sex with me, they all say the same thing: "keep it bald."

Ok - at first I thought - yuck & of course how could he- but apparently some men wanna out do women - so go ahead & wax your balls - dont make sense to me - but dude is trying to say - he gets more play - how ever I must admit - less hair down there - does increase the size...

Finally - as my cousin Marcus would say to me - DO WHAT YOU DO!!! - cuz back in the 70's a hairy bush was in - now its no longer sexy
But this is a taboo conversation - and we are not suppose to talk publicly about these things

I wish the rain wasnt so cold...

Love is blindness
I don't want to see
Won't you wrap the night
Around me
Oh my love
Blindness


Such a rainy day & all I can think about is listening to Cassandra Wilson - I just wish I had blue light to complete the mood

You gotta Luv me - to hate me..

You gotta luv me to hate me

You gotta understand me sometimes -
Maybe you wont -
understand me sometimes - when Im being me

Let me tell you -
I gotta slick mouth sometimes
Im kinda ....
snappy - sometimes
wanna make a point - sometimes
just to let you know what I see...

I dont mean to be negative sometimes
dont know why -
I think that way sometimes
but somethings are just the way I see
....them
you gotta show me - how to free
...them
& what to
pay attention to
sometimes
there are things -
maybe I shouldnt pay attention to
but sometimes thats all I see

so maybe I dont know how to be the person you want me to be
maybe - what you thought of me
were expectations
sometimes limitations
of what I would do
sometimes you hate me
but Im sure you luv me too

Monday, August 08, 2005

Vocabulary for the week - Step 1 - is always the hardest

Stuplendous:
so great in size or force or extent as to elicit awe.
Phenomenal:
exceedingly or unbelievably great
Extraordinary:
Beyond what is ordinary or usual:
Delightful:
greatly pleasing or entertaining
Edifying:
enlightening or uplifting so as to encourage intellectual or moral improvement
Tranquil:
free from disturbance
Golden: (In associatin with favorable)
marked by peace and prosperity

I choose 7 words - to help you this week
These positive words should be your motivation for the set days (or if you wish - everyday)
Today - (Monday) - Stuplendous
Tuesday - Phenomenal
Wednesday - Extraordinary
Thursday - Delightful
Friday - Edifying
Saturday - tranquil
Sunday - Golden

With practice - you can obtain a peaceful, positive, and fruitful environment - it is your's to control...
p.s. just keep remembering the good
p.s.s. I say that step one is always the hardest - because it involves making a decision to "change"

Evasive

Today - I had to define to a "friend" what evasive means - so I went to answers.com - (thanks to my neice Kiera) and got the definition.

Here is what I found:
evasive is associated with the following topics: (& I quote directly from the website)
playing games
shifty
double talking
giving people the runaround
razzmatazz
and the last example I will use is...
dodgy

So what is wrong here?
People do this all the time - (& I will be the first to admit that I have had trouble answering some difficult questions)
and its a clear example of - saying what you mean & meaning what you say
if you say what you mean and mean what you say - you dont have to speak in codes
no one will be offended if you say - what you expect or dont expect - (& in most cases: what to expect or not expect from them)...because they were pre-informed of the situation.
Yes, In most cases - people cant handle the truth - but the truth will set you free - to be either on your way - or give you the opportunity to deceide if you want to deal with the situation.

New Disclaimer:
Please be advised that you are accountable for your words and your actions.

p.s. I woke up this morning and said to myself - Self - what's the real issue here? - the real issue is that Im a grown azz woman - enough said...( no - really - I am a mature young lady)
p.s.s. My Sister Kisha told me last week - dont say anything to somebody, or about somebody that you dont want repeated - speak with good purpose

Sunday, August 07, 2005

What do you do when you are boried?

Yesterday (Saturday) - I was - some what boried...
I wanted to go... somewhere
I wanted to be somewhere - but I couldnt..
I wanted to spend time with someone - but I couldnt...
So I had to deal with me - entertaining ME

The first thing i did was clean my room (Smurf - it felt good cuz I did it when I wanted to do it - not when anyone expected me to)
Then I play a few classic games of solitare (drinking my wine)
I stepped out front only to view my very nosy, 66 year-old, gossipin neighbor drinkin a beer - talking about she's chillin -
Pardon me - but she doesnt act like any 66 year old I know - or would respect in the grandma age - she needs to be somewhere - baking somebody a peach cobbler...

Anyhow - so thats how my neighbor spent her time entertaining herself
Me...-after a few games of solitare - and text messaging - I didnt know whether to reach for a book or an previously view DVD -
So - I guess Im just not used to being alone
I guess I would rather being doing something - rather than nothing & trying to figure out something to do
I would rather be doing something (& maybe even nothing) with someone - so that we can feel boried together & I wonder if this is the importance of companionship (for when you get older)
I could have been out with someone that I didnt even want to have occupy my time & so I didnt waste a precious Saturday evening - allowing them to believe that they had enough stock to purchase that slot
My girlfriend Ryane' was in town
My girlfriend Sandy was out of town
Nia was no where to be found
Smurf was broken down
& .... you get the point
I was boried & I went to sleep early
Tonight I have a phone date -LOL!
but Im hoping for something more exciting

Teaism

Yes - my friends - I am a coffee addict - but I would like to take a special moment to talk about - a neighbor of coffee....TEA
Tea is a woman that lives in between Mr. Coffee & Cocoa - Cocoa is bi-sexual and knows how to make everyone fall in love with her/him...(even children)

Anyhow - I went to Tea(ism) - because Mr. Coffee was out of town on bizness & I wanted to try something old - but something new...
I must say - Tea(ism) is a hot (& sometimes cold) - I especially enjoyed brunch - (I never had Chicken/apple saugage that taste so good.) - maybe I'll wear some white gloves next time and have someone teach me how to play bridge
Anyhow - i advise you to try some Tea(ism) - she's (its) more on the oriental side - (even though I mostly prefer British) - it was very delightful & just in case you didnt get my story - Teaism is actually a place...

P.s. Do something special today...

Thursday, August 04, 2005

Conversations with God

Dear GOD:
I just cant stop - trying to figure things out - you know me - I mean you made me this way
I mean - who said - letting go was easy?
who said - just let go & let GOD
I mean - why shouldnt I worry about it?
it has to deal with me
I mean - how can I NOT think about - how its going to happen? - when I have only one day - before it needs to happen
& Im scared.............
Im scared to let you do it on your own - because you need my help - dont you?????
YOU need me to tell you how to work it out
Cant u just do it like this... for me
If you tell that person - give me my money back - give me "my" car back - everything would be perfect... RIGHT!?????
If you get me the job I need/want/must have- and I didnt have to put much effort into it - than THIS will make me happy!
So what am I forgetting? (that I am GOD)
what is so wrong with my idea? (my way is better)
How long is it gonna take you to do it? (when you really deceide to let go...)

So - how do you expect me to not worry about it:
(Phillipians 4:8..... whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you. )

p.s. & that's what GOD said to me the other day

Cluttered room

My.... eyes.... are..... green - cuz I eat - a lot of veg-ta-bles....
It dont have nu-thang - to do with your new friend....
Erykah Badu (aka Ms. Jackson's daughter)

So its today already
When do I get to play - already...
Not now my child
there's so much work to do

Dear Smurf:
I understand now...
back then -
when you useta - keep your room dirty (i mean disorganized) -
I didnt understand - how you could think in that.... clutter
Now my room is cluttered
been that way for a week (or more)
my cousin - thought someone robbed the place - until she realized that every other room in the house was clean
was organized
so its just me
Im just free
come out off my clothes
& just be (an excibitionist)
sippin on my wine
writin my rhymes - until I fall asleep
GOD wakes - me up
got my coffee & Im really up now
2nd cup - I swallow down
& I wish I was at Sequoia's - with a laptop writing this
- but for now - its my future - I keep fighting this...
So.. how is your room lately?

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Diaries of a Spa Coordinator

Week One:
Smile...
Now keep smiling...
Now tell everyone how great they look - even if they dont look great - after their deep cleansing - facial with extractionss and an added chemical peel.
Me: How was everything!
Them: Great... Great - its - always Great!
Me: Well - good - because you look Red!

You know consistency is the key - I say
Come back in 2 weeks - Repeat serveral times - until we can get you to purchase one of our series packages (a sets of 3 or 6 - so that you can atleast spend $500 more dollars before you leave here today)
It pays to be beautiful - literally!
I love to look beautiful - seriously & thats why all my work will be done for free
Even if I have to work over time - the sign reads:
I will work for a facial & dammit - I mean it!!!

Now for the good part (smiling again)
Using my spa voice - is actually like becoming a call girl & I think that I enjoy talking sexy with the clients
Tip-toeing around the spa - in hopes that I dont interupt a treatment - has worked wonders on my calfs
But if you ask me whats a Microdermabrasion? - I'll kick your Afts! - LOL! (just wanted to throw in a rhyme)

All & All - it has been Great!
and each experience - is moving me closer to the light

August

My birthday month - here is is August 2 - by the way -
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYANE' EDMONDS
Everyone wish Ryane's a happy birf-day - not to mention - my beautiful neice JC - whose birf-day was yesterday (August 1st) & D's birf - day was yesterday - too!!!

Well - this blog is specially dedicated to all Leo's - add your birthday to the list"


Monica Lewinsky
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July 23
Slash
July 23
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Woody Harrelson
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Jennifer Lopez
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Iman
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Matt LeBlanc
July 25
Dorothy Hamill
July 26
Kevin Spacey
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Mick Jagger
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Sandra Bullock
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Jonathan Rhys Meyer
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Elizabeth Dole
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Stephen Dorff
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Arnold Schwarzenegger
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Laurence Fishburne
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Lisa Kudrow
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Dean Cain
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Wesley Snipes
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Coolio
August 01
Jerry Garcia
August 01
Yves Saint Laurent
August 01
Edward Furlong
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Lance Ito
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Martha Stewart
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Martni Sheen
August 03
Steve Martin
August 03
Billy Bob Thornton
August 04
Loni Anderson
August 05
Geri Estelle Halliwell
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Charlize Theron
August 07
David Duchovny
August 07
Dustin Hoffman
August 08
J.C. Chasez
August 08
Gillian Anderson
August 09
Melanie Griffith
August 09
Whitney Houston
August 09
Antonio Banderas
August 10
Hulk Hogan
August 11
Casey Affleck
August 12
George Hamilton
August 12
Julie Newmar
August 13
Danielle Steel
August 14
Magic Johnson
August 14
Ben Affleck
August 15
Debra Messing
August 15
Angela Bassett
August 16
Kathie Lee Gifford
August 16
Madonna
August 16
Robert De Niro
August 17
Sean Penn
August 17
Christian Slater
August 18
Denis Leary
August 18
Edward Norton
August 18
Robert Redford
August 18
Bill Clinton
August 19
Matthew Perry
August 19
Connie Chung
August 20
Isaac Hayes
August 20
Slobodan Milosovic
August 20
Kenny Rogers
August 21 - JUST ADDED - Laseandia Harley
Howie D
August 22
Norman Sschwarzkopf
August 22
Pete Sampras
August 22
Tori Amos
August 22